thinking back...

i can only remember two times in my life where i held a baby for more than a minute.  once was when i was in elementary school when i met my baby cousin for the first time in hong kong, and the second time was my nephew visiting us in austin.  the parents were around both times.  i didn't really grow up around babies, and i never baby sat.  i can't remember ever changing a diaper.  this is the first time i have ever been alone with a baby.  and i didn't even realize this until my sister in law pointed it out, i'm not only alone with a baby, i'm alone with a baby in a whole other country.  scary...